I guess I will get used to them not wanting me. Until then I can't eat or sleep.
Elizabeth,
When I experienced nearly the same abrupt end to my time with CC, I went through about a month of feeling awful. I was kicked to the curb so quickly that the move hit me like a ton of bricks. I cried for days, didn't feel like eating, sleep was a wasted effort, (as my CC time seemed to be, then, and still now) and attempts to go through every day activities were difficult for being so patterned to the "radio routine."
I struggled, coming to terms with the fact that the minute I was let go.... that was it. No more contact with the people with whom I'd held what I believed to be professional friendships, and no more support from them or from management. It was if the time and years I'd put forth didn't mean a thing to anyone.
I grieved for a time; then, woke one morning (still patterned toward a morning routine) and told myself, "This is crazy." I realized I gave CC the absolute best I could give them and if my best wasn't good enough, then I didn't need them. I'm wise enough to know when I'm not wanted; they no longer wanted me and once I convinced myself I would be okay, I realized how much better off I'd be and was from then forward, even if I still was left to find other employment.
I have been okay and, Elizabeth, you will be okay, too, regardless of where the path leads you. I wish you the best of luck, but please don't be too hard on yourself. Keep on being the professional you are and someone, somewhere, someday soon will take notice and honestly appreciate you. In my opinion, I'm not sure if CC is capable to appreciating anyone, these days. The days of radio and appreciation going hand in hand seem to be a forgotten memory, in this era. It's all about the $$$, and to management, who cares who's screwed over in the process???!!!
Keep your chin up....